1. Decipher that there is a spiritual path.
2. Decipher that the nagging urge, the sense of dissatisfaction of the mainstream’s notion of life, my feelings of angst, anger, sadness, fear and hopelessness are actually my Spirit longing for true expression.
3. Yearning for the spiritual path takes up all of my waking hours.
4. Decipher that the authentic explanation and embodiment of the spiritual path is not social media posts, is not “how to” books by the current media gurus promising a quick and easy path to nirvana, wealth, perfect relationship, perfect body, positive energy, good luck, and infinite happiness.
5. Cross the desert of disillusionment.
6. Recognize a moment of meaning.
7. Come to trust my ability to sense and know that moment – even though I cannot explain it in words.
8. Let all that I thought I knew crumble.
9. Feel the vulnerability of being outside the socially acceptable. Live the fear of not belonging, the sense of destruction and isolation that comes to those like me who do not conform.
10. Give up the hope of the material privileges that are promised to those who do conform.
11. Find a safe, trustworthy and rooted space within myself to call home, to turn to for refuge, for guidance, for true love.
12. Come to understand that I have always been on a spiritual path.
13. Relax into joyful anticipation of a life lived consciously and cooperatively with my Infinite Self.
14. Take another breath, walk another step, type another letter, contemplate with the love and patience the Unknowable.
When I was about 22 I was told to buy a book by Paul Brunton called “Perspectives.” In it he kept writing about “the quest.” I had no idea what he was talking about. This made me confused and angry. So, I bought his next book, called “The Quest.” It confused, confounded and intrigued me. I carried it around for years and wondered what it meant. I loved his books but I could not understand what he was talking about. Day by day and year by year, I’m less confused, less angry, more peaceful, more happy, yet no less drawn to the Mystery of the Unknowable.